I have been a witness and test subject to my own disbelief. i can no longer believe my experiences have only been subject to god/devil analogies. i am not a man of religion, yet i have tried to accept all human points of view as positive experiences since reality will state that no good has come from my personal experiences to benefit my personal life. i have had many surgeries and medical treatments in my life and i know i should not be like this. i would say these “issues” started in 2013 and are continuously haunting me. i have been taken out of the normal timeline that i have been accustomed to and seen other realities of existence or possible existence. i have trust issues with all species and entities, scientific viewpoints, and religious viewpoints and prefer good ‘ole fashion communication for i have experienced communicating with the living, the dead, and others i am not sure how to explain so i prefer in person contact. i can no longer discern good from evil intentions of others. i have become financially bankrupt and morally corrupted. i know my deeds are all well intended, but i don’t know if i am causing harm to those i am not peripherally aware of. i have been taken and or sent on a journey with no end in sight, even after my corporeal existence comes and goes. please help if you can. i will allow all medical inspection possible and conversation dictation. i have had to dispose of all my notes, drawings, impressions because nobody would believe me because i always start my conversations with a frame of reference others don’t want to hear or consider. thank you for your consideration and know that my experiences would be overwhelming for anyone. god/devil heaven/hell commanders/grunts electronics/biology peace on earth and others and good will to all sentient entities. my apologies for my way of cryptic communications with redacting much of my history. i do not know how to recover my deleted electronic files, nor can i recreate many of my notes. my mind, body, and soul need inspiration to assist with your desires like a potentiometer.